“Lay me down in sheets of linen / You had a busy day today”

I was thinking it’s been quite some time since I’ve written a moody post, but I checked and, of course, I was wrong. My posts are all about moods! I’ve been in a strange mood lately. It’s not strange to me, but I’m trying to express it in other ways. Unfortunately, it is not working as well as I expected because I feel like I’m an empty shell and just drifting through the day. Subsequently, I needed to get more than a few things off my chest.

Designer Showcase July

Instead of writing tons, I’ll just make a list. It’s in no particular order.

  1. I’m so disappointed in humanity lately that I fear the future.
  2. One of my dogs is afraid of fireworks and I wish I could help her.
  3. I want a challenge, but I don’t want to try anything new.
  4. All lives matter.
  5. I’m trying to get excited about opening a restaurant one day (long story but short insert for hubby’s benefit); however, I hate cooking and trying or inventing recipes, so I’m not sure what I’ll do.

That is it. I think. Oh, I wish I could have been a ballerina. I had to slip in my outfit somehow, but, really, that is true. Designer Showcase’s July round is out and I’m in love with More Than Ever’s Urban Ballet Dress. It’s a cool silhouette, so you don’t have to necessarily wear it with ballet shoes unless you want to be a ballerina too.

Click ‘tiny dancer‘ for your lift to Designer Showcase.

I’m wearing

Outfit: Urban Ballet Dress (Neutral) for Maitreya by More Than Ever @ Designer Showcase (July 2016)
Brain: Simone by Lelutka
Shoes: Sweet Thing. Ballerina Pointe – Petal  for Slink Pointe Feet (Former Arcade Item)
Hair: Tableau Vivant \\ Starry Night \\ Blowing – (Former Arcade Item)
Prop: ::{u.f.o}::Swan Lake, Act1 – mannequin ballet shoes v2 (Former Arcade Item)
Pose: Del May – Musical statues

Post title pinched from Elton John’s “Tiny Dancer.” I just love the movie below.

“Just own the night like the 4th of July”

Franklin D. Roosevelt once said:“In the truest sense, freedom cannot be bestowed; it must be achieved.” I couldn’t agree more. Happy Fourth of July! May you celebrate in style. =)

Happy 4th of July

Sascha’s Designs Purr in USA (Buy a Gown for 500L and get USA Purr for free!)
Real Evil Industries Lux Pearl drop Necklace
.LeLutka.Mesh Head-Simone
DeeTaleZ *Mesh* Freckles Layer
little bones. Yuno (Collabor88)
Boudoir Fourth of July Pinwheels (Gacha Item)
The Big Black Sky pose by Flutter Memel
Mini Fireworks Display from Basic Elements (Free!)

Purr in USA
SAS - Purr USA  (+ Omega)

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“Just like fire…If I can light the world up for just one day”

If you aren’t into the Zodiac, you’ll probably moan and groan after my next statement. I love that I’m a Sagittarius! It’s a fire sign, of course! Whenever I am uncooperative (restless, unrealistic, superficial, or lose my verbal filter), I play the Sagittarius card.

Glitter Swank

I used to own the best book called Darkside Zodiac. I traded it for Frida Kahlo’s autobiography, and I don’t know why. I was going to replace my old book, but I just found out there’s a new edition. Since it’s called Blame Your Planet: A Wicked Astrological Tour Through the Darkside of the Zodiac, it sounds like it’s right up my alley.

I’m wearing
Glitter Nerea Blouse and Skirt mesh Lace Red Fiesta @ Swank (June)
Pose:  Glitter Poses Back 3 Serie 1

Sunshine is wearing
Glitter Red Passion Group Gift
Pose: Label Motion Gemma

Location: Pelican Point
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“Way up in the west hills” (not really, but it’s even better)

We finally settled in our new place. I swear, the older I get, the more moving physically hurts! This time, the hurt is worth it. I love our new home. I’m plotting how to decorate the place and make it a home as I type.

Monique by Styles by Danielle

Since I feel fancy, I decided to dress like high society as I plan. Styles by Danielle’s Monique is a succulent blend of satin, cashmere, and floral design that comes in shimmering and non-shimmering. I like to sparkle. Who doesn’t? It doesn’t matter if you like to literally sparkle on the outside or exude a sparkly attitude because both are beautiful. Monique in shimmering beige is a group gift, so now there’s no excuse to not sparkle on the outside.

I will buy you a new life

Dani Plassitz’s June group gift is the perfect combination of chic sparkles and Summer. There’s a small enrollment fee (200L) to join Styles by Danielle’s group, but all group members receive exclusive monthly gifts (see above:) ), a 30% discount on new releases, and tons of other on the spot group gifts and discounts. Click Styles by Danielle for an in-world lift!

I’m wearing
Styles by Danielle Monique Beige shimmering dress
Baubles! by Phe Crystal Drops Earrings in Gold
LeLutka Simone
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
_CD_ Tania Sandals – Slink – (June Arcade)
Props: DRD LN Porch planter, draped chairs, curtains (poofed and see through), and chandelier 2 (June Arcade)

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If you aren’t me, how do you know how I feel?

If this were real life, I would be screaming. I can only handle butterflies in SL. As beautiful as many believe they are, butterflies scare me. Relationships used to scare me too. I always felt like I loved too much and scared people off. While Twittersphere debates the authenticity of Taylor Swift and Tom Hiddleston’s relationship, I felt compelled to say who cares. Let the girl get over her former relationship however she wants.

Let go

I told my hubby that Swift’s lyrics, from many of her songs, were so relatable because I remember that longing and that hurt that came with every love lost. I recall one breakup where I tried to replace the man that I loved. A male friend came over and tried to get with me, but before anything happened, I tearfully told him I couldn’t because my former boyfriend was on my mind. When I see pictures of Swift and Hiddleston on the beach, one picture reminds me of my former emotion because I think Swift’s sad and Hiddleston is taking the moment. And taking the moment is exactly what we should do. I’ve had my share of heartbreak. At the end of the day, it was worth it because I finally met and ended up with my soul mate.

If you are not me_how do you know how I feel_

I would never have thought my husband and I would end up together because he knew me as a friend and, as such, knew I was a mess. He saw something beautiful in me that must be blind to my moodiness or at least tolerable…and he still loves me. I really hope Swift found that. If she hasn’t, all I can say is it will come so let go. Love has a way of finding you. Now I really need to get a life and stop reading about celebrities lol.

I’m wearing
[Zanze] Xiomara Dress Daisy for Lara @ Designer Showcase (June)
….Mutresse… Gugu Sandals for Maitreya Body
.LeLutka.Mesh Head-SIMONE 1.6
Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
Hair: pr!tty – Navi – {Rootless} @ Hairology
Pose: Nantra Butterflies are Free @ Instruments
Location: The Place

“The place where you came from ain’t there any more…”

This is a subtle part II to my last post. My husband teased me mercilessly about calling one of my posts part I, so this is a test. If he really reads my blogs, I have to use it to my advantage.😉

Last time, I went on and on about our Chihuahuas, but only wrote specifically about Annabelle. Now, my little Loki is my first love! Both pups were rescues so I can only imagine their pasts. Loki’s foster dad was not official, but he was the one who snatched up a little, lost dog walking around in traffic. I’m so glad he saved Loki’s life because my little pup doesn’t know this, but he saved mine. When I adopted him, I was desperately in need of unconditional love. We were a match!

She thought, I have got to think. I have got to know what to do.

Now, I have my hubby and our Annabelle so it finally feels like a family. All we need is a place that I want to call home, and that is harder than it sounds because it has to be a home in Las Vegas and not my hometown Albuquerque, for now.

I’m wearing:
Outfit: Layercake Tank by More Than Ever (3 color choices and Maitreya and Omega appliers for shorts) @ Designer Showcase (June 2016)
More than ever Hud
Hair: Lamb. Sometimes @ The Arcade (June 2016)
Shoes: Lindy Rachel White for Maitreya @ Designer Showcase (June 2016)
Pink glasses by *New Tentacio* @ The Arcade (June 2016)
Chair: {Koalifications & Razzberry Inc.} Mint Beach Chair @ The Arcade (June 2016)

Post title pinched from Joyce Carol Oates’ short story (One of my favorite short stories ever) “Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been?

“Where are you going, where have you been?” Part I…

My husband will appreciate half of this post. Now, when I say he’ll appreciate it, I mean he’ll remember the original story. We adopted Annabelle, a little rascal of a Chihuahua, last year because my husband saw her picture and wanted to give our Chihuahua Loki a companion. The first couple of days were rough! I was protective over my Loki because…well he’s a mama’s boy. Annabelle is younger so much more playful. Naturally, I thought playful meant she wanted to eat him. Now I know better. They’re a cute little team. She feels like a part of the family, which hopefully means she won’t try and run.

Ooh she's a little runaway

Annabelle’s foster parents warned us that she was an escape artist. We found out that was true a couple of days later. She didn’t escape, but she hauled ass down the stairs and out the door. Thankfully, my husband caught her. I can’t imagine our little family without her. Both of our pups were rescues, so I always wonder about their lives before us. That also means my husband and I are fiercely protective of them. We don’t know where Annabelle wanted to go or where our little rat babies (yeah that means Chihuahuas in our world) have been.

Part II coming soon.

I’m wearing
[WellMade] Lori Dress for Maitreya @ Designer Showcase June (Includes versions for itmesh, Belleza, and SLink as well and a hud for 8 color choices.)
Lindy’s New Shoes Rachel in White @ Designer Showcase June (For Slink and Maitreya Flat Feet)
Lamb Hair. Loomer  @ The Arcade June
TENTACIO Radio 02 @ The Arcade June

Props and Pose
+Half-Deer+ Chihuahua – Run Run Run @ The Arcade June
[Con.] The Cuddle Camper – Yellow Rare @ The Arcade June
[ keke ] shells flat @ The Arcade June
{Koalifications & Razzberry Inc.} Mint Beach Chair {C} @ The Arcade June
Pose: Slay – Wixon by Blackliquid.Tokyoska

Post title pinched from Joyce Carol Oates’ short story (One of my favorite short stories ever) “Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been?

“Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well…”

Any blogger who does in-world shots knows the risk. By risk, I mean other avatars entering a blogger’s world. Sometimes, it’s harmless. Other times, people behind the keyboard are having a wonderful time jumping or pushing the solitary avatar that looks like she is lost or away from the keyboard. This time, I camera stalked the one-day-old avatar and took a snapshot because for all I know she is new or perhaps she’s having a bad day. I’ve never really photographed others, but it’s the personification of nostalgia, for me. Avatars are not human, but the people who control them are. So, this is for Fiyouna (pictured below). She doesn’t know me, but she virtually touched me.

I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it

When I first set out to blog, I had Memorial Day on my mind. I don’t know anyone who has died in service. As a good American,  I appreciate it. As a person, I wish war wasn’t necessary. I have lost loved ones, and they did not die with honors, but I still take this day to remember them the same.

I remember it all too well

The people I knew were battling their own wars and they lost. Some people say suicide is selfish, but it may not be that simple. In a twisted way, suicidal individuals may feel as  though they are making a difference in their loved ones’ lives and that means letting their loved ones live on in peace. Of course, that does not happen because the living hurt more than the dead, but it’s an idea that haunts me.

Wind in my hair, you were there

Before I get too political or crybaby for my own good (I don’t know enough to really debate about politics; I just run on emotions so you’ve met your match in crybaby territory), I’ll end it on a safe note. For those that I’ve lost and whom others have lost, we remember you all too well and love you. ♥

I can’t say that I love you Fiyouna because I don’t know you, but I want to thank you for bumping into me.

I’m wearing
Blac Label Boutique Siran Cardigan~Peach Limpet @ Designer Showcase (May Round)
Blac Label Boutique Siran Halter and Shorts ~Peach @ Designer Showcase (May Round)
*Nya’s*Jacky-O Flats for Slink @ Designer Showcase (May Round)
Vanity Hair:Miss Fisher-Browns
Pose 2: ASO! Mimosa 5 (Gacha)
Pose 3: Eternal Dream Vicky 01
Location: Everlong 

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Speaking of which…

I used to have an active Second [social] Life. It was loads of fun in the beginning. I call it the SL gloss and that gloss wore out quite some time ago. Teaching was fun. Pretending to be a model was fun too. Isn’t it funny how we can change interests even in our Second Lives?

For instance, now, I log in solely to blog. If my old friends get my autoreply, chances are I really am in Photoshop, or I just don’t have anything to say. Regardless of what I am doing, I let my autoresponse do the talking.
How to be alone

Don’t get me wrong. There are a couple of people I miss chatting to. My old friend Tiff is one. The last time I ‘spoke’ to her, she was choreographing dances, which I think is so fun. You know how I love my animations. Anyway, if I could do that without the actually ‘talking’ to others, I totally would.

I mean, I could choreograph a dance or two and then blog it, but since I only hang out with myself (you’ve met Sunshine and Taco, my real life husband…I took control of his avatar a long time ago), it’s sort of computer intensive lol. I suppose I just wanted to say, if you get my autoresponse, it’s because I’m just here to relax and get away from my real life. Other times, I only have enough charm left at the end of the day for one.😉

I’m wearing

Legendaire Valentina Dress (Maitreya) and Heels @ Designer Showcase (May’s cycle ends on the 31st)
PurpleMoon Safety Pin Clutch [gold] Black (Former Gift for the Instruments)
Truth Hair Verity
Pose: Manifeste 616
Location: Paris Land

Yeah, I’m sober, sure I’m sane: Still your daughter still the same

If there is any fairy tale character I could really understand, I would have to say it’s Thumbelina. Before I get too deep, it’s due to my size. I swear to my husband that I’m five feet tall and he swears that I’m lying. Okay, so he knows me well but I know how men gauge inches so I thought I was safe! Really, the perfect height for me would be 5′ 4″ so I could wear flats. I can’t complain. Perhaps my mother wished for a tiny little child like Thumbelina’s mother  did?

Were you scared that I might get hurt

In spite of my size, I am the big boss lady at my workplace. I suppose I mastered my everything is okay face because my assistant manager claimed I was her hero due to my ability to handle everything in stride and be pleasant at the same time. Little does she know, but I am far from fine.

I'm losing my mind

She is younger than me, so I’m trying to play the good role model, but sometimes I wonder if it is ever okay to say I don’t give a fuck about your problems because I have my own?  At the same time, I love my life.

And I might be okay. But I'm not fine at all.

It’s really not so bad. Yes, my thoughts are a bit convoluted at times, but that’s the way  I roll and the only way I can fly. ಠ‿↼

I’m wearing:
Picture 1 and 2
:: PurpleMoon :: Thumbelina Gown, Crown, and Wings @ Enchantment Featuring Thumbelina  (May)
#EMPIRE – Erica Flats for Maitreya @ Enchantment Featuring Thumbelina  (May)
.LeLutka.Mesh Head-SIMONE 1.5
Exile Hair::Stone Cold Seduction and Memory Bliss
Poses: (1) **Manifeste** – Model_510 by July Raymaker and (2) Posies-Blender 07 Tall by Anatalia Honi

Picture 3
:: PurpleMoon :: Shabby Dream Dress (May Instruments)
:: PupleMoon :: Thumbelina Wings @ Enchantment Featuring Thumbelina  (May)
Exile Hair::You Send Me
Pose: Le Poppycock *Small Blessings* Small Wonder @ Enchantment Featuring Thumbelina  (May)
REIGN.- Boho Laced Sandals (Maitreya Lara)- Camel @ Collabor88 (May)

Location: Kingdom of Alurel 

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